Sometimes I want to do just this. Drop every dang thing and start a new. Take a risk and ride the waves. Why does society have such constraints that disallow me to actually do so? One could be a writer, an artist, a dancer, an astronaut, a lawyer, or a fighter if things were that easy. Sadly, they're not.
One can dream. I wish to someday just work for myself. It's never an overnight thing. It's a thing that takes time and patience as well as perseverance, time, and a constant flow of money. Every day you have to push to achieve your goals. When you fail you have to get up and continue moving.
I love failure. Failure is the sole thing that allows me to learn from my mistakes. I don't want a road map to success I want to figure it out on my own. If there's some guidance on the way from peers or Youtube videos, that's completely fine, but I would rather get that hands on experience. When I do it this way I know I'll feel way more accomplished and fulfilled than the latter.
I've been sitting on this metaphoric cliff telling me to just jump and go for it. Being 25 is definitely a factor for me because when I look back on my younger years I feel I had a better shot at shooting for the stars then than now, since I have other commitments attached to me. With a full-time job and a family to care for it all just seems so out of reach.
I have my days where I can make this mediocrity of everyday workout in my mind but executing it is so dragging and hard to endure. Some people like that, but I am not one of them. I like a challenge and also to enjoy the actual things I'm doing. Currently I'm in a field of work that doesn't suit my tastes and it's strictly for income. There are people at my job who I enjoy being around but my day doesn't consist of socializing with them so they aren't the reason I'm still there. I do have goals and ambitions for this job while I'm there but a lot of the time I find myself thinking that I would much rather be progressing somewhere else.
I always wonder, do I take the risk of no income for a while in order to reach my goals or do I just push day in and day out trying to force my exhausted body to get up early and stay up late to achieve my goals?
In my opinion, now is not the time to jump and take the risk, because it is not your risk alone. It can harshly affect others. So it pains me to say so, but you should bite the bullet and push for the time being. Your break will come.
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